Connection

I'm an emotional wreck. 

I just got news that my aunt is dying. She's suffered from dementia, Alzheimer's, etc. for several years now. And she's been in a rest home for quite some time. 

We all knew it was coming. But it is just so hard when the news does finally come. 

I just moved to Utah. My aunt lives about 6 hours away so I'll be able to go to the funeral. But I'm going to try to make it there before she passes away. 

She doesn't always recognize her sister. Or her daughter. {Why is this always so hard? I'm ugly crying as I type this.}

It's been hard feeling a connection to my aunts, uncles, grandparents, and cousins because I've always lived so far away from them. It seems like I lost one of them every time I move closer. My heart ❤️ can't handle this. It's not humanly possible. 

What has helped you get through the loss of a loved one?

And will you please pray for me, send good vibes, love, and any other way that you think may help me through this?

I know it's not gonna be easy. It never is. I can't even imagine what it'll be like when I lose one of my parents or siblings (I'll cross that bridge when it comes). 

SO I'm going to be thankful for the time that I've had with my aunt and remember what I love about her. 

I've always been one to appreciate #thelittlethings. I'm going to keep on doing that. And expressing my love for others every chance I get. Which will be hard for me, since it's not something that I usually do. But it'll be good. It'll be worth it. 

Plus, I've got God watching out for me. He knows what I need. What my family needs. And, also, what my aunt and her daughter need. He is ever watchful. Sure He lets us go through trials and struggles, so that we can grow as individuals and ask for His help. 

If God directs you to reach out and help someone this week (or anytime) I hope you will. Because you never know what impact one action will have on someone. ❤️ 

Thanks for reading. And letting me be vulnerable. 

Love,

D. J. Lathrop